Tear Jerker

My co-worker showed me this song tonight. If you know the story about the Chapman family... you may have heard this song. It is really horrible what has happened to them. But this song is beautiful. And if I were to get married... I would dance with my father to this song.

Days Like Today

It is days like today that I wish I had my mother near me. There are certain times in our lives when we just need the affection of our parents. My father is pretty much incapable of showing me emotion. He tells me that he loves me and takes care of me in every way that he knows how. But being emotional support is something that he does not know how to do. Right now, there is nothing more that I can think of that I want then a hug from my mother. Even though she has not always been there for me like a mother should, doesn't mean that I still don't need her. I wish that things would have gone differently in her life so that she could be here for her children when we need her the most.

Scared

Well, Scott was going to be heading home tomorrow. But he called me this evening telling me that he is back in the hospital. Another bowel obstruction. So, he may need another surgery. I am starting to get really scared that he will not get well enough to come home. I hate that he is so far from me. I just want to be there for him. I know that there is nothing I can really do, but I can be support. I love him and hate that he is so far from me.

It's Coming.... I See It

LOVE LOVE LOVE

I learned about this group a little over a year ago, The Rogue Traders. They are from Australia and they are AMAZING!!! Well, I had kind of forgotten about them. And since I am in the US, I didn't know that they had a new album out. Well, I am in love with this new song!!!Seriously! The beat, the words, everything about it I love. It is called What You're On. I have been listening to it non-stop all week!!

The fuckers have the embedding code disabled... go here to listen.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Kru4kOeSzQ&feature=related

Update

I know that I have been very distant from everyone. I am sorry. But, I just don't feel like myself lately. I am really struggling with everything in my world right now. I randomly burst into tears without any notice... have been drinking more then normal... and partaking in activities that are not at all like me. I am seeing now how I am dealing with my stress all wrong. And I know that I said I would go talk to someone and I still have not done so. But I plan on it very soon. After the weekend I had, it is very obvious that I need it.

For those that don't know. Scott is back in the hospital. He started throwing up Sunday and could not stop. They said that his intestines have telescoped... which means they have folded over each other like how a telescope folds down. Well, yesterday he said that he was feeling better and that the doctors believed that it would correct itself. If not, they will have to open him up again to correct it. Then, he calls today and says that he now also has pneumonia and has begun throwing up again. He is not in good spirits right now... and is not taking my calls. Says he wants to be alone. I understand, but it hurts me so much. I want nothing more then to be able to be there with him. I still can not believe that this is all happening...