MESSY

My life is such a mess right now... self inflicted... yes, most likely. But does that make it hurt any less? No. I have too much on my plate and I am so confused and so lost.

They say that love conquers all... they say that love is all you need... is that really true? I am not so sure that love is enough. Relationships are so hard. And when you fall in love with the "wrong" person, what are you supposed to do? Your head tells you one thing and your heart tells you another. I usually listen to my heart, and it has brought me joy at times, but also pain in the long run.

I am in a situation now where I really feel stuck. I need strength and courage to get through this. I have supportive friends. Some that say, "don't worry Alexiss, we will love you no matter what." And then I have others that think I was a total idiot if they knew what I was really thinking...

To top it all off... my mother insists on calling me and making me feel like complete CRAP. And questioning every little thing. And trying to make me feel bad for something that she has done for over 20 years!!!

At this point I feel like I really only have two people in my corner. Well, three really. But these two people have ALWAYS been there for me... I know that they always will be there for me. They do not judge me. They love me regardless of the "careless" choices I make. Without them... my life would be rather lonely. Charlie and Michelle, I love yall more then you will ever know!!! <3