The Things That Bring Me Joy

Lately this is what makes me smile.... and how could it not. My godchildren bring a lot of joy in my life. I have four of them! Last weekend Britton and Gibson stayed with me.

"I'm a little teapot..."


Britton LOVES the drums... and no, this wasn't at my house. This was at his neighbor's house. He couldn't believe that they were letting him play them for so long. He loved the symbols!

Sweet Letters

So, tonight before I left for work I grabbed a book off the bookshlef to bring with me because I had already finished all my work earlier in the week... and I am so bored in here at night! Well, what would be the chance that the book I grabbed had two letters in it from Scott? Old letters from the first time I broke up with him because he was doing nothing with his life... and then he ended up going to college because of it. I would like to share one of the letters. It shows the sweet side of Scott that very few people knew.

Dear Alexiss,
I just want to take a moment here to thank you for all that you've done for me. I thank thee for all the most wonderful times we spent together. You have brought something very special to me, a chance to be loved and cared for like no one else has ever done. Thank you for always being there for me, being by my side when I needed you most. With you there with me when I found out about Patrick meant and means so much to me. When I found out I had cancer, you were there holding my hand, with you there I didn't care as long as I had you with me. You stayed with me for both surgeries and that made things go much easier for me. You were there right before I had surgery holding my hand by my side and you were there when I woke up doing the same thing. Thank you for always being there for me. I especially want to thank you for giving me a chance to love and be loved. Thank you ever so much for putting up with so much shit. Thank you for giving me a good reason to live. You have been very patient with me thru thick and thin. I want to thank you from deep in my heart for every little thing that you have done. I want to keep writing but its late and I have lots to do tomorrow. You start school tomorrow and I want to wish you the best of luck and I know that you are going to do so well. Alexiss, thank you so much for being you, I love you and always will love you. You are my special woman, you are my hummingbird.
Forever Love,
Scott

My Lil Dragon

So... I am a little late posting these... but here are the ADORABLE pics of my godchild Caden on Halloween in the cutest costume EVER! <3

One Month

Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal. ~From a headstone in Ireland

It has been one month today that we lost Scott. I miss him so much. But it gets easier everyday. I am so lucky to be surrounded by people that love me, and that includes my cyber family!! Everyone has been so supportive! I couldn't ask for a better group of friends!

Here are some silly pics that Scott took when he was bored in the hospital. Such a goofball... he never lost that twerpy side of him that I loved so much. Even down to the last days he was calling his brother pussy lips. LOL




this one is my fav...