Just James

I know we have all seen this. But I love it so much, I wanted to put it on my blog.

Wednesday...time to go home. =(

Wednesday morning really sucked. More for some then others! Melissa and Liam got up early to bring Shelly to the airport. She had the earliest flight out of the group. But it was a good thing in a way. Because two trips were needed just to get everyone's stuff to Melissa's apartment! It was hard saying goodbye to Shelly. I love the whore so much! Seriously one of the best people I have ever met! Everyone in this group, really. So they brought Shelly to the airport. I went back to sleep and got up when they returned. We ate breakfast and waited for Annieka to get up and start packing. Ollie called me and told me that they were leaving and that they would stop by to say goodbye. We hung out in James' room for a bit and helped him pack. He gave Mel and I awesome New Kids on the Block stickers! LOL. Finally, everyone was ready to go. We packed up the car. James had been wanting to go to the 9th ward since he got there. So Melissa told him we would go if he promised to stay in the car with the windows up. Do you think that he listened to her? Hell no. We had a photoshoot in the 9th ward. Only James St James. LMAO!



He even found a souvenier!

Then we ate and went back to Melissa's house. We watched soap operas. (Still have not gotten those pics from Annieka!) But no trip to Melissa's would be complete without a visit to the ghetto mattress. If you don't know about the ghetto mattress, you better learn! James was so funny. He didn't know about the mattress. He was a little concerned as to what we were going to do with him on the "ghetto mattress".

FAT TUESDAY!

So of course, Tuesday was the BIG day. We all got up early to get ready and in our costumes!! I think that I had the easiest of all the costumes. But I adored it so much. It was the most hideous article of clothing I have ever bought, and I could not wait to wear it. Even if no one but us knew who Trudy Shinderman was! Meet Trudy and her aunt, Queen James.

Once we were all dressed, we headed out to Bourbon St for the Bourbon Street Awards. It is a huge costume contest that is held every year. I have been wanting to go for years, but this was the first year I actually made it out there! (Last year I was way to hung over. LOL).

Meet Les Krewe Des James St James. There was Geisha James (Ollie), Gym Sock Chic James (Liam), Trudy Shinderman (Me!), Bloody Bride James (Melissa), and James was the queen of us all!!! And of course, Miguel was there too, but not in a costume!

Also, not in that picture was the "Um.... Ew" James (Shelly). And yes folks that is THE dress!! From James' first America's Next Top Model apperance!

And of course there was also Crazy James (Troy) and the rough and tumble slice of pizza (Jason). I have no idea where these boys were during the awards! They were way to late and not in any of our pictures. Losers. LOL

Now onto the awards. I have a million pictures of all the costumes. But this one was my favorite. I guess cause I love candy so much! And it is very colorful!

And who could forget our intermisson entertainment! I already forgot his name. But he doesn't need one! LOOK AT HIM! Yum.

After the show we sat in Oz for a while. Danced a little, then went back to the hotel. We were all so hot and sweaty. It was fricken hot that day. But so much fun! James ended up leaving early. Shelly sat in Oz during the whole show. But Trudy was out there letting her freak flag fly!!!! Woooo whoooooo! The rest of the day was a lazy one. We went to the voodoo shop for a bit, some people went to eat. Some people went out.... and didn't come back until really late (the good catholic girl. LOL). It was all coming to an end.

Mardi Gras Insanity Day 4

We had to get up early on Monday to get ready for the voodoo tour with Bloody Mary! I was very excited about this tour! I knew it HAD to be better then the mortuary! So around 11 we headed down to the cemetary where the one and only Marie Laveau is located. And here we are....

The tour was really awesome. Bloody Mary, our tour guide, first brought us to Marie Laveau's tomb. She awoke her spirt.

And we left our offerings. We each had something to give. I can not remember what each person brought. I brought two rice necklaces. Each from my past relationships. One with Stave's name on it and one with Scott's name. I guess it was kind of my way to move on. Shelly brought a Red Hot Chili Pepper t-shirt of course. It was a very special shirt to her as well. From the first time she saw them, I do believe. Liam brought a rainbow feather boa. Melissa brought some braclets. James also brought a t-shirt that a cute boy had given him. I can not remember what Annieka, Ollie, and Miguel brought.

Then we went on a tour of the cemetary. I have lived in Louisiana for about 10 years now and learned so much from Bloody Mary about the tombs and how they are used. It really is amazing. It was very beautiful and peaceful in there.

After the tour of the cemetary we went to the church. They had a beautiful place for St Jude.

Then we went to the park to make our voodoo dolls. This is when I got the phone call from my grandma telling me about my mother's sentencing hearing. We were walking to the park, and I was walking in the back of everyone. My grandma told me that my mother recieved 18 years. Which is two years over the minimum. But I held it together. I really wanted to make my voodoo doll and I didn't want to ruin anyones fun. So.... back to the voodoo!!


Here is James' doll, I believe it was being called Peter Geisha! LOL

After the voodoo dolls, everyone was hungry. I decided to go back to the hotel so that I could call my aunt and have some alone time. I was a bit overwhelmed at this point. I think that everyone took a nap after lunch. But, there is no time for too much rest! We had to go out again! And so we made our way back to the Pub. Had to take a quick Vuh Jay Jay shot before we left though!

Once I had a couple of drinks in me, I was good to go! No time for pouting! How can you be sad in the company of all these awesome people!!!



Baaaaahahaha, oh my... this queen!!

It really was a good night!

Mardi Gras Insanity Day 3

Well, the beginning of day three was a little ruff. I don't think that we got to bed until 6 in the morning!! So with a couple of hours of sleep we slowly arose. I knew that Ollie and her hubby would be coming soon, so I tried to get motivated. Didn't really work so much. LOL. So, YAY!!! Ollie and Miguel arrived in New Orleans! Don't ask me what time. I have no idea. But when they got there, their hotel was not ready. So I dragged my ass out of bed and got dressed and Melissa and I went and picked them up from their hotel. When we got back we ordered food from the Nellie Deli. How can you not love a place with a name like that?!?!?! Liam, Annieka, and Miguel decided to go for a walk and see if they could find a parade. Of course, the rest of our lazy asses stayed in bed!!! Sunday is the day of rest, right?
Well the one major thing that we DID do on Sunday was a tour of a haunted mortuary. Let me tell you, I was super scared to do this. Ghosts freak me the FUCK out!!!!

I mean, look at the place! Fucking creepy!!!

We got there early, so of course pictures were taken. Shelly got some really fucking awesome black and white shots outside! They are fucking HOT! And soon she will have her own album on my myspace with her artsy shit!

But no fear. Auntie James made sure that I would not be too scared. Everytime I would gasp or say "Oh my god, I don't like that at all!" He was right there to hold my hand.

The lady that gave the tour was way over the top! And the whole thing seemed a little cheesey towards the end. There were other people with us running around talking all crazy. OMG, I feel this and OMG I feel that! Whatever!!! Read James' blog HERE. But once we got home. Melissa, Liam, and I were looking at the pictures and holy shit, we found fucking faces lurking in the back of the pictures!!! But I must say my favorite part of the tour was watching people walk around feeling for "cold" air.

After we left the mortuary we dropped all of our peeps off and Melissa, James, and I went to Mickey D's for some food. These are my favorite times with James. I can not tell you how much I love listening to him sing along to the radio. And if he doesn't know the words, he makes his own! We ate and then went to bed. Another big day planned the next day and we had to be up early!

Mardi Gras Insanity Day 2

Waking up the Saturday morning was not an easy thing for me to do!! Melissa and Shelly had to leave early to pick up the king cake, go back to Melissa's apartment to pick up the stuff we couldn't fit in the car, and to get James from the airport. Liam, Annieka, and I were going to walk to the cute shoe shop to get his manties. I am not sure what time we left, but we were all starving by the time we reached Decatur St. So we stopped to eat. Liam and I were soooo ill from the night before! I think that I may have spoken 10 words throughout the whole meal. Once we were finished, Liam just looked at me and said, "Let's just go back to the hotel and sleep." Sounded great to me, although we were about 3 blocks from the store we were going to go to!! Back to the hotel we went! We lounged around and watched TV until everyone else arrived. James said he was tired too. So, we all napped. But then we got up, got motivated, and started getting ready for the parade!!!!

Who is this hot ass tranny and where did she come from? Oh yeah, CORNTOWN!!!

Hot tranny and her pussy.

Then, off to the parade we went! Somehow crossing the street we lost Liam and Shelly. So Annieka, James, Melissa, and I went to the parade. James and Annieka were running around like loons singing "When the Saints Go Marching In".

James got bored of the parade after about 2 floats!!! So off to the fruit loop we headed! Of course we had to stop and ask people for beads! James was totally trying to pimp Annieka out and get her some big beads, but she insisted that she was "a good catholic girl"! He offered the guy a blow job, but being that we were in the straight "asshole" part of Bourbon St, he wasn't handing over the beads!

After being rejected by the straight asshole, we decided to stop and talk to the fag hating jesus freaks! They of course told us we were going to hell. Whatever!

By this time, of course, I had to use the little girls room! So off to Good Friends! The friendliest of gay bars!! (They have a decent womens restroom, and it has a DOOR!) On our way there we get a call from Troy saying that Shelly and Liam were with him! Amazing! Shelly spotted that beautiful bald head out of a crowd and knew it was him! So, we sat there for a while. Had some drinks. Then decided that we needed to bring James to meet Troy's friend Freddie, the cutest bartender on Bourbon!

Then shared some kisses of course!

Then to Oz we went!!! More insanity and drunkeness. Geez, I have no idea what this is!!!! Bahahahaha, but I do know that is my hand!

I think that it was shortly after this some of us decided to call it a night! We brought Auntie James to his hotel. Melissa and I went to eat at Clover Grill. Back to the hotel to call it a night.... kinda!

Mardi Gras Insanity Day 1

My insanity began on Friday. I woke up, showered, did my last minute packing and then headed out the door on my way to NOLA to see Uree, Shelly, and the perfect specimen. And would you believe that Uree pulled into the parking lot of her apartment from picking up Shelly 2 seconds before I did!!! So we all met in the parking lot! There were screams and squeals! YAY!!!!

So we go upstairs and chill until it is time to leave. Then came the packing of the car. Wow, what a task that turned out to be!!!! Liam, is that you in there? Can you breathe?

The drive into the city was nice. Melissa and I are yelling out for the tourists. "Oh, the superdome!!!" And we are totally being ignored by the chatters in the back seat. It is OK though. We forgave them. Then we got to the hotel and YAY omg, we had a parking spot! Thank God!!! We checked in, got our room, settled for a bit, and poured drinks! Then down to James' room to decorate. OMG, the things Shelly brought to put in his room. WOW!

After decorating and a stiff drink, I am ready to go out!!!!

We walked around for a bit. Tried to bring Liam to the cute shoe place for some lacey manties. But they were closed. But we found things to do along the way!

And once we got back to the hotel as well.

Then we headed back out for a parade! Ended up being just Liam and I for the parade. I caught some beads, and so did he. Once it was over, we took a walk down Bourbon. Stopped at Tropical Isle for the famous hand grenade. Then we made our way down to Oz! But it was DEAD!! I could not figure out where everyone was! But there was one cute guy that started dancing with Liam and he showed us some pictures that Lance Bass was there!! But we did not see him. Oz was kind of boring, so we made our way accross the street to the Bourbon Pub. We got freaky on the stage with some cute boys.... but there were also some not so cute boys. Like the scary guy that I think stole my wallet. Then, Melissa called me, telling me that Annieka had arrived!!!! So, for some reason I thought it would be a good idea for me to walk back to the hotel alone to meet her! I made it safe and sound.... and a little drunk!

Then, just a little more rest before heading back out to the Pub to dance with more cute gays and more drinks!!!!!

I am not really sure how much longer we stayed at the bar! But I did leave with a huge bruise on my ass from trying to jump on up on the stage when I was way to drunk to do so! I also left with 2 cig burns on my arms! LOL, but I was feeling no pain! But trust me, I felt it the next day!!!!!

Trying

I am trying really hard to be excited about tomorrow! And I am. But, work really sucks right now! OMG. More drama tonight. I don't know what is going to happen. But it really really sucks.

Plus, today is my Mom's birthday. I wish that I could call her. I am really scared for her. My grandma says that she is not doing well. She thinks that her kids will forget her and that we don't need her anymore. I sent her a birthday card. I have gotten to the point where I don't even know what to put in cards and letters. I know that nothing I say will make her feel better. And I feel to guilty to tell her about the good parts of my life right now. I don't want to parade it in front of her what she can not have. I really miss her.

Circle Circle Dot Dot

OMG! This is soooo super cute! I love it!!!!

Update on Me

I am so thankful for all the caring friends I have right now. I know that I have not been answering peoples calls and text messages and I am sorry for that. I don't mean anything by it. I am just trying to gather my feelings and thoughts.

And life just keeps getting better and better. When I got home Scott picked me up from the airport. He informed me that he is leaving on the 28th. Which is next week. I am not sure how I am really dealing with this. I know that he and I are not together anymore, but it still really hurts me to know that he is moving away. He is my best friend. We have been through so much together. It is hard to imagine my life without him.

Stuff at work really sucks. There are lots of issues going on that I really can not talk about. But it sucks and is very stressful. I think that they are going to call a mandatory meeting on Feb 1st. Which is the day I requested off because I wanted to get an early start to New Orleans to check into the hotel with everyone. But now it is looking like I will have to work after all. I mean, I really can use the extra time. But it just seems like nothing is going right at this point in my life.

My mom's birthday is Jan 31st. Sucks that she has to be in that place for her birthday! And she is still in county jail, so I can not send her anything but a card and money. I really don't know if I was just that ignorant and hopeful. I really thought that she would be getting out of that place all together. After hearing her side of the story, I knew in my heart that there was no way that jury could find her guilty! But the tricks that the DA pulled out at the last minute... what he left the jury with. It was unbelievable! It was lies and things to confuse people! I have totally lost my faith in the justice system all together. The fact the lawyers can say whatever they want in their closing statements is beyond me! The lies! Every time Mom's lawyer tried to object to something, the judge would over rule it or whatever. I am just baffled. I am overwhelmed and lost. There are so many things that mom's lawyer did not say! And so much that the jury obviously did not pick up on on their own. It just doesn't make sense to me.

Uree, Sunshine, Shelly.... I will be calling soon. I just have not felt like talking with anyone. I called my best friend this morning. She is the first person I have talked to. It was hard. I still haven't even called my dad. That also really upsets me. I don't understand why he has not tried to call me. Whatever, I guess I am supposed to do all the work in our relationship. And I had better call soon, or I will be getting another evil call from my step monster. But I will soon start calling you all. I do miss you very much.

Lost in Devestation

So, I know that I have said that I would call many of you and let you know what is going on, but it has been really hard for me to even pick up the phone.

Yesterday the jury got to the courthouse at 8:00 am. We too were there. Waiting for their verdict. I am guessing that many of yall have figured out why I have not been around. The jury found my mother guilty of both charges. Attempt murder in the first degree and aggravated assault. The minimum sentence that she can receive is 16 years. so, to all those that told me not to sweat it, that she would probably serve 2 years... you all did not know what you were talking about. I had felt so dumb for many months feeling scared that my mother would be locked away for 20 years and so many people told that it wouldn't happen like that, that it just couldn't. Well, guess what... that is what it is looking like now. Then the fucking investigator on the DA side said that he wants the judge to consider 24 years as a minimum. What a fucking asshole! I don't understand what he has to gain but making her serve those extra years! At this time I do not feel like going into details of the case. There are many complicated things that are involved. And the DA is a fucking asshole. I know that he is doing his job, but he LIED in his closing statements! Even the investigator on my mom's side was crying yesterday! We have been told that there is a huge issue that they can bring to appeal. So I am trying very hard to be confident that my mother can stay strong and go through the appeal process and win. Mom doesn't seem to think that it will do her any good unless we hire an attorney that specializes in self defence cases.

I know what my mother had been going through up in the canyon with Steve. She had been calling me for months before the shooting happened crying about what he was doing to her. She had so much proof of domestic violence against her by him. I just don't fucking understand why 12 fucking people could all think that she was guilty. Steve was up on the stand fucking laughing about himself being an idiot or having 4 loaded guns in the house with 2 small children! Yes, that is what I said, 4 loaded guns!! Not locked up! Out in the open!!! And he is charged with NOTHING!!!!! Argh!

When I am feeling more up to it, I will post more about the case and the fucked up things that happened. I am just so upset and lost right now! Oh, and to top it all off. The sentencing hearing is February 4th. Now, how in the hell am I supposed to be out having fun at Mardi Gras, knowing that my mother will be receiving her sentence to prison!?!? My life is upside down right now. I don't even know how I will make it to work Sunday. Although when I talked to mom yesterday night, she told me to go on with my life. That I can do nothing for her now and shouldn't cry about it.

I dunno. I am gonna go for now. I miss you all and when I am ready to talk, I will call. I am going to be OK. I am surrounded by family right now so don't worry about me. Love you all.

Almost There

So, you all know where I am and why. I am in Colorao for my mother's trial. Yesterday was jury selection and my first time meeting everyone involved in the case. After meeting my mother's lawyer we are just kind of chit chatting. He tells me that he too is from Louisiana. We talk a bit about that. Then he comes up to me and says, "We have you as a potential witness, which means I am going to have to ask you to leave the court room." Of course, what do I do? Bust into tears! I can not beleive that I was kicked out of the court room because I MIGHT be a witness. I have been waiting seven months to hear my mother's side of the story and I get kicked out. So, I go sit outside the court room. At 11:00 break, my grandmothers friend offers to drive me home so that I don't have to sit there all alone. I get to my grandmother's and in about 2 hours, my aunt calls me telling me that she too was kicked out of the court room. Her and her husband had been supeanaed by the DA. But, they were not on the intial witness list, which I heard the DA call out. Then after lunch my grandparents are told that they may need to be rebuttle witnesses, so they too were asked to leave the courtroom. We all go the boot! But my aunt and gramdma had friends that stayed after jury selection and heard the DA's opening statements.

Today we all went back to the court house. We are allowed to sit in the court room before court starts. So mom was able to see us and the jury also saw that we were there to suport her. And we will be there until the end. Also my aunt and grandma's friend came again today and also one of mom's friend. So she has the support. I think that may be important for the jury to see so many there for her. Shows that she has a place on the "outside". At this point I don't have anything else to share about what is happening and what is going on in that room because we are not in there and not allowed to talk about it with anyone. But we have been informed that we can purchase transcripts of the trial when it is done. We all agree that we want to read it.

I have a feeling that tomorrow will be the last day. So everyone keep my mom in your thoughts. Her and I have had a very rocky relationship. She has done many things that have hurt me in the past. But she is still my mother and I love her. I don't know what will happen to her if she is convicted. She is a very strong and intelligent woman, but not everyone is made for a life in prison. She does not belong there. And even though I do not know her side of the story at this point, I know that there is so much more then what has been told by other parties.

Love you all!! Thank you to all of you that have always been there for me. It means a lot to me! Even if I am getting phone calls at 5:45 in the morning!! =P

What the hell is in their water...

... in Alabama!

My friend Charlotte came over the other night and showed me these videos. We then figured out that both were in Alabama. Seriously, what is going on out there? LOL

She showed me this one first. Now we have all seen these cheesey furniture commercials right? But this guys flea market commercial is too fucking funny! His eyes are like bugging out of his head and he seriously thinks that he is the shit!

A band, Family Force 5, goes to Flea Market Montgomery!! And invites the guy to sing at one of their shows.


OK... now this one, I have no words.

You gotta love the woman in the car! "It might be a crack head that got a hold of some bad stuff." Hahahahahahahaha

Aaahhhhhhhhh

So, one week from now I will be sitting in a court room and I am totally starting to freak the fuck out. How am I going to do this? I am so scared. And I feel as if I am being selfish, because I know that my mother is very scared. But a part of me can't help but think that she should be. The more evidence that I hear about what happened that night. Things that have been proven have just filled my head with nothing but doubt. I mean, please don't think that I am heartless. I love my mother, but I also know her. And it is a very sad and painful thing to realize that your mother is actually capable of doing the things she has done. Whether it be planned or in the heat of the moment. Doesn't matter. She still went through with it. I got a phone call today from an investigator. It was a very hard conversation. I had to be honest. I am not so sure that I helped much. I am so torn and scared. And right now I am so lonely. I miss Scott being here to comfort and hug me. I need physical affection right now and have no one in my life that can give it to me. Argh! I was doing fine until I got that fucking phone call. Now here I am back in freak out mode. God, please just let this be over with. I am ready to put it behind me and have some closure.

William Bitches!!

OK, so I have been browsing random shit on youtube and found this adorable guy! William Sledd is his name and he is too fucking cute. I have never subscribed to anything on youtube... but I just did to his page. Here is the first video I saw of him. I love love what he says about the overalls. OMG, too funny!!!!



But all of the videos I have watched are good too!! So if you are bored and want to watch a cute twink from Kentucky, here ya go!